Rambles for the Day

I am in a rambling mood. It's been a crazy past few days, so I might as well ramble here on my blog.

The Army irritates the crap out of me. Don't get me wrong, I fully appreciate everything the SOLDIERS do for our country. I appreciate that they risk their lives everyday to make sure we continue to have our freedoms. I just feel that since they Army is such a big thing in our country, how can they not be better organized? The Army as a total (both Active Duty and Reserve) has roughly 1,097,050 members. That is a huge amount, and yet out of all those people, they can't really have things organized amongst themselves. I just don't get it. They are treating Alex's terminal/transition leave situation as if he is the very first person to EVER take terminal leave. EVVVEERRR! They continue to give him the run around. They made him wait around on something he could have been getting done somewhere else, all because they didn't give him the proper information. I think the Army takes pretty good care of their service members and their families. Yes, deployments suck, and they are not very family friendly. Aside from deployments of all kinds, the Army takes care of families financially (not nearly as much as most people think those serving makes...people make more in the civilian world than enlisted military). They provide housing, clothing allowances, food allowance, and of course raises every year spent in service. Service members really don't have a lot to worry about when it all boils down to it (aside from those deployed). So why not know your military information? If you are in Operations, know what needs to be done as someone in Operations, as a whole. Why half ass your job? If you are someone in Battalion, who, for the majority of the time, sits around looking at paperwork, why can't you know the proper procedures and know the meaning of timely service? There are reasons why people hold these positions. It's because someone, at some time, felt you were capable of doing everything it takes to get things done and to deliver any and all information necessary. Why slack now? Thank goodness all of this is finally coming to a close for us, even if it is taking longer than is needed!

Another irritating thing is people constantly trying to tell me how to live my life or what would be best for us. I love people giving me advice. I have absolutely no problems with that. I do have a problem with people telling me what my life plan is and how it should be acted out. I'm perfectly content with how things are going for us right now. Alex is getting out of the military, which I'm happy about. We are doing fine financially, because we planned things out, and have followed through with our budget. We are still looking for jobs, but have some really good stuff lined up with all that, thanks in large part to our family and friends. We were able to get an apartment pretty easily. A lot easier than even I expected. And the best thing of all? We have each other. I don't need things to change right now, we are already going through a lot of changes as it is. I'm sick of hearing from everyone that we need to have a baby. Why? So we can struggle more than is necessary right now? I'm not saying babies aren't great and that we don't want one someday, I just don't feel there is any reason to rush. Yes, I have moments of really being baby hungry. I think it's a mixture of being around babies so often and the fact that I'm older than all of my friends who have babies, so it's somewhat of a biological clock thing. I just feel strongly about how I plan to be a parent one day, and right now really isn't our time. I know that no one is fully ready to have a baby, but I think it's important to be somewhat ready to welcome a new life into this world. One you are responsible for caring for and supporting for the rest of their life. I just have really strong feelings of how I want things to go when it comes to babies, and I refuse to give on any of those things. I don't want a baby to add as a fashion accessory, I want a baby to be a parent. To have someone to love unconditionally. I'm just sick of hearing, "Oh you guys need to have a baby", "I bet you'll get pregnant within a couple months", "I know deep down you want to have a baby right away", "You're jealous of everyone having babies because you want one". If any of those things were true, I would admit to them. I do want a baby, but not right now. I know how to protect against getting pregnant, so I don't see us getting knocked up anytime soon. I'm not jealous of people having babies. That's their business, not mine. I want something different for us and our future child. I want to feel good about having a baby, not stressed. I want us to be financially stable enough to bring a baby into the mix. I want us to both to be financially able to have me out of work for a few weeks while on maternity leave. I want us to be able to comfortably handle paying for child care. I'm all down for being a working mom. That's how I see my life. I don't see myself as a stay at home mom. Not because I won't enjoy being a mom, but because it's something I feel good about. I like being a supporter. I like contributing to our household. I'm just over people trying to tell me what's good for me and my relationship. Butt the heck out!

Sorry for my rants, things are just frustrating in these parts lately. Here's something a little more upbeat:

Things I'm Loving in Utah:
* My cute little apartment. It's small, but perfect for us.
* My new wax warmer from Walmart (Hawaii Walmarts don't sell them!). It's got little fleur de lis' on it.
* My new wax warmer smell. It's kiwi and cucumber. It smells so stinkin' good and it sure helps with the new paint and carpet smell in the apartment!
* Hoodie weather!
* Seeing my family--Not all of them, but the UT side of them.
* Being around the friends I've been missing.
* La Frontera...Enough said!
* Going through the storage unit seeing all the stuff I've been without for over a year. I love finding all my cool stuff!
* Driving around in MY car

Those are just a few, but I thought I would share!